What does it take to look beautiful? Sexy? Worthy? Does a competitor in a body-building show really feel sexy? Maybe, but what if you spend a fortune on a blinged up bikini, strappy heels, professional hair & make-up, and then the process of leaning down brings out some of your flaws for all to see?
That would be me. I thrive on the challenge of chase to stage-readiness, but I accept a few of the annoying side-effects of such an endeavour. I have a jaw that is too square to be conventional. I have a waist that point-blank refuses to cinch. I have legs that enjoy holding onto some little fat deposits, and I have (as explained sooo many times before) a bit of skin strategically placed on the gluteus maximus that does not want to play the firming-up game when I get under a certain weight. On top of that, my face looks drawn, weary and gaunt come comp-day. No one needs to point any of this out to me. I know it all. I am scarily honest with myself and can be terribly hard on myself too.
Despite the above, I feel spectacularly alive on competition day. I feel a rush of excitement that gathers momentum throughout the day. I get those same waves of that excitement through the last 6 weeks of comp prep, and it gives me the strength and determination to fight through the weary fog that descends at points. I thrive on the challenge to get stage ready and absolutely love the contrast of depletion vs 'normal'. It's crazy for sure, I'll never deny that!
Being brutally honest, the comp criticism can hurt an already fragile ego but it’s all part of the package and I shouldn’t compete if I can’t handle the jandal. I've given myself a few stiff uppercuts after asking for feedback and being told exactly what is not right with my body in relation to competitions. As long as it’s delivered appropriately, I can take it and digest it. My view is- if I’m not winning everything I put myself up for (lol!! I’m certainly not!!) then there has to be room for some pretty big improvements. If I can’t accept that improvement is needed, yet I’m not winning, then there would be a serious flaw in my reasoning. As I stated, I’m seriously honest with myself and I like confirming which areas need the most attention.
With all of that said and done, I’m ready to do some changing. I’m up for a new challenge.
So let's put it out there for all to see. I'm doing a competition in early 2016. Haha - there - I said it!! It must be real then!
And let's drop another clanger. I have been without coach/trainer for over a year while I have been deciding on which direction I want to go in and how I want to get there. I now have a coach. I didn't go small - that just wouldn't be me. I went for the best in the Universe. And I didn't gravitate to her because she is the best actually - because that, as a value in itself, is not anywhere near the top of my Most Important List. It is much more about having a compatible training style, an approachable demeanour and being just an overall lovely person. She truly is all of this and so much more and the wait and search has been well worth it. Along with a coach, I have taken on a nutritionist and the credentials are all there again. And she just seems like a beautiful person on top of it all.
So I'm set up. I'm roaring to go. I started my new program today and the delts are seriously thumping.
Approx 25 weeks to go and I'm going to ride this baby out with the others going for Season A. Too exciting!!
So let's put it out there for all to see. I'm doing a competition in early 2016. Haha - there - I said it!! It must be real then!
And let's drop another clanger. I have been without coach/trainer for over a year while I have been deciding on which direction I want to go in and how I want to get there. I now have a coach. I didn't go small - that just wouldn't be me. I went for the best in the Universe. And I didn't gravitate to her because she is the best actually - because that, as a value in itself, is not anywhere near the top of my Most Important List. It is much more about having a compatible training style, an approachable demeanour and being just an overall lovely person. She truly is all of this and so much more and the wait and search has been well worth it. Along with a coach, I have taken on a nutritionist and the credentials are all there again. And she just seems like a beautiful person on top of it all.
So I'm set up. I'm roaring to go. I started my new program today and the delts are seriously thumping.
Approx 25 weeks to go and I'm going to ride this baby out with the others going for Season A. Too exciting!!
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